Help me please! whats wrong with my life?

With all due respect, i don't care how much in love you are, NO MAN has no right to hit a woman. After he hit you that first time you should have left him. After he basically cheated on you, you should have left him especially if you had thoughts of suicide.you Now he is probably with you because of money your getting from the Army. (Hoorah to you...and thanks for all you have done in the Army for us.) I think you should kick him to the curb. There are more fish in the sea...it may take some time getting over him but it will pay off in the long run. Man needs to be able to provide as well, not just you. If i came off as a b****, i am sorry. Im just being real. And i wish you the best for the future. :~)